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Olympic athlete Marion Jones is finally confronting her past instead of evading it.
The former track-and-field star — who won three gold medals and two bronze medals at the 2000 Sydney Olympics and was later stripped of them after admitting that she used performance-enhancing drugs — is facing her demons head-on with her appearance on Special Forces: World’s Toughest Test.
And years after she was sent to prison for lying to federal authorities and banned from her sport, she also recognizes the impact her actions have had on her loved ones.
“At the time of my sentencing, my two young kids were still too little to grasp the situation, but I was fully aware of my mistakes,” reflects Jones, 49, in a candid moment. “What weighed most heavily on me was the thought that eventually, they would have to confront the consequences of their mother’s actions.”
She remarked, “Throughout the years, I’ve expressed my heartfelt regret for disappointing so many individuals, and now it’s time to look ahead. This may not be the response that everyone wishes to hear, but that’s my current perspective.”
In 2008, Jones spent half a year in a federal women’s prison located in Fort Worth, Texas, due to her criminal activities, which also encompassed her participation in a check-fraud scheme.
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“I've decided to step back into the public eye after intentionally staying away for quite some time,” Jones stated. “It’s a chance for me to explore my capabilities, despite those being some of the toughest days of my life.”
In the second episode of the show, Jones disclosed that she endured 49 days in isolation during her time in prison after getting into a fight with another inmate.
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“If I have to fight, I will fight,” she said, while facing off against Kayla Nicole in a hand-to-hand combat challenge in which Jones later injured her ribs.
As far as the mental toll her past behavior has taken, the former athlete — who won the NCAA basketball national championship as a player at North Carolina and who later played a season-and-a-half for WNBA’s former team the Tulsa Shock in 2010 — is aware of it all.
"There are moments when I genuinely appreciate the challenges, or as I prefer to call them, hiccups, that I've encountered in my life. They've contributed to my strength, improved my character, and helped me find balance. Without those experiences, I wouldn't have reached my current position," she expressed.
Jones subsequently remarked, “I can't alter the past, but I've come here to demonstrate to my children that true courage is taking a step forward even when you feel reluctant, knowing there will be critics and differing opinions. But the key is to not fade away.”
Special Forces: World's Toughest Test airs Wednesdays at 8 p.m. ET on Fox.
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